“Heaven is a decision I must make.“
It is not enough to decide to not want attack, grievance, depression, illness and misery, even though it is a required first step. You need to consciously align with the qualities of creation as you feel them well up within you and as you see them displayed around you.
If you do not take that second step you end up in no-man’s land where the ways of the monkey mind can easily get hold of your inner world again. A conscious, active decision is necessary to steady your course towards the light.