“Heaven is a decision I must make.“
It is not enough to decide to not want attack, grievance, depression, illness and misery, even though it is a required first step. You need to ask for inner guidance and consciously align with the flow of Creation as you feel Love, Joy, and Peace well up within you and see them extend in the world “out there”.
If you do not take that second step, you will end up in no-man’s land where the ways of the ego mind can easily get hold of your inner world again. A conscious, active decision is necessary to steady your course toward the Light.